Finally, handed in all the projects. Yet, still been rather hectic. You know, dance and homework and tests. I've got no motivation at all to do my homework at all. I've no idea why too. Because i'm too tired? or what... Mid-years are coming soon, I've to get my engine started. And yes, stop thinking too much, and concentrate. Digressing, i still don't get a thing about geography. Despite trying to stay awake today with mentos and all, seriously. doesn't help at all!



 Yes, i think too much!

 The disappointment with people thru' people. Trust takes years to build, but a second to crush. I tore it off, at last. Memories that are awesome yet hurting, worth to keep or throw? No, i'm not escaping. It's just that what's meant to be, will be. what's with people these days? so unpredictable. So, it's nice to know that there's some that will still be there for you. ♥

I don't know what to type anymore. My mind's not working right now. I'm wearied. 


April's coming though. Hope it's gonna be an awesome month. Cafe@HIHS, and then 22nd :) Looking forward much? Maybe.  Need to get out more, to shop or to chill out or perhaps a movie, all will work!

bye

on the 23rd of march....

































Was Beaunice's BIRTHDAY!





Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to 郭红粉, happy birthday to you ♥


It's been so exhausting these few days. Mentally and physically. I'm sleep-deprived. I need sweets to keep me awake, and my mind working. I need to relax ):

Awesome.

bye.

There's so many first time in life.. The first time you cried, the first time you hurt, the first time you love... Yet we don't realize them at all. So when was the last time you did something for the first time?


I can't believe school holiday is ending tomorrow!
This school holiday is the worst one I've ever had in the past years of my life. Homework-wise, i meant. You can't count it as a really sucky school hols, I don't mind going back to school for dance everyday, it's pretty fun. But homework...



FML.  
I've realized that I haven't completed some of them, i thought i completed most of it already. I've noted that I didn't even study for any single test in the next upcoming week. Am i so screwed? English and geography project isn't even done. Damn yes, i think i am that screwed.

Next week onwards is gonna be so stressed up for me. Dance and projects will colliding. And then I wouldn't have time for tuition. And study, for testS. It's so amazing how teachers thought that we students really spent our holidays doing nothing, therefore throwing us piles of homework. We don't take just 1 or 2 subjects, we take bloody 7 subjects!  So yes, FML!

Told mom that, dad over heard too. They started complaining about me not having good time management. Yeah, partly so. But the thing is, we've dance and project in just ONE week, so how're gonna like do everything together? Oh god oh god oh god. I wanna bang my head against the wall, I'm going bonkers before school even officially starts! It's like, i'm in despondency.

Digressing, i really hate songs with really sick lyrics. Like 'Imma Be'. Hey I didn't even know that until i went to google the lyrics. Lag or what? But still, dislike!

So anyways, finally met Puny that day! Compass point's Sakae is really not for normal human's consumption. The food sucked, and we payed so much for it. So, no no, i'm not ever going back again. I HATE CHU SAKAE! 
 But we had an awesome time chatting, no? And thanks for the Pocky! Puny miss Pepper a lot, hah!   :D

So school's starting in a few hours time huh? catastrophe of march school holidays. Being optimistic, it's gonna be April soon. It means... Yours Truly's birthday! It's gonna be a lot of people's birthday too. And I'm gonna spend a bomb again. And yes, I don't get to shop again..


I REALLY NEED SHOPPIINNGGGGG.! ):




But hell yeah, It's my birthday too! LOL :) So yeah, i'm going off to bed now.
Bye dear holidays.

We all have times where it feels like the whole world is against you, so we'll want to be at a place where things are in your way.

Maybe part of loving is learning to let go.  ~From the television show The Wonder Years

Yesterday's evening was plain awesome.

So, we had a mini surprise celebration for Beaunice :) Oh, fine, i spoilt the surprise a little. ♥'s were Cheryl, Beaunice, Lina, Justin, Nigel, Timothy, Christophe. I love Beaunice's oh-so-touched face. Feels that everything we planned was kinda worth it. No? :) ohoh, the cake was darn awesome too! very squashy indeed. But rather then a celebration, it was more of a small 2 Diligence gathering. I miss 2dil a lot. We chatted, we laughed like nobody's business, we caught up with each other, we gossiped. Love it! Bunch of jokerz :D

And I also found out I need to go on a shopping trip soon!!!!

Say hi to timothy!  Hey, it's very cute okay.

 @ skypark.

Rest can't be found. It's in someone's phone. someone is too lazy to upload 'em ):



 Today too, was awesome. Had dance, jive! How should I put it? Every dance sessions is so awesome as we'll get really high. Like for no reasons. Haha! I didn't know the sec 2 guys were so friendly until today. seriously! Ain't we all excited for Friday's vetting? SO NOT.!

Was very very very tired, dropped dead once i reached home. I think i'm too awake now! But still isn't in the mood to do homework. Got pissed off just now cause i couldn't find my pencil, so i shut the chemistry book off. Projects are being so annoying as well.

Mom is the best. Cause she and brother and dad went out, and i decided not to go since i was THAT tired. Digressing, i kind of regret not joining, it's the best time to shop!  So anyways i texted mom to get me food for tomorrow's field trip. Mom bought me like 2 boxes of tic tac, 3 sticks of mentos, 2 sticks of that grape stuff, a packet of chips and uh.. i forgot what else. 'M not gonna gobble all up in a day though, i'll just suffer from sugar rush.  Bye to the world.

Even after all this time the sun never says, “You owe me, Earth,” Look what happens with a love like that, it lights up the whole sky.

Say hi to the march hols.

It seems scary how fast time can pass. Like it's March already?! Hey i thought it was only Febuary yesterday!

During primary school days, holidays to us were like a time to play, enjoy and relax and all. Somehow, I don't feel the same now. Oh wait, it is indeed very, very very different. Littlest things that I know i'm not gonna get within this holidays, make me feel very depressed. Really. Things like getting to sleep till' late afternoon, having your own personal time, or even hanging out with friends.

Rather, I'm already gonna be waking up at unearthly 6 in the morning. Come on, it's a holiday, and I've to wake up THAT early almost everyday ?! Nicez. Adding on the hell-ish amount of homework and projects we're getting from teachers. Amount of test we're gonna have that's all gonna count into CA2 after school reopen.


Life like this serious SUCK!

So is some stuff giving me headache. I'm a zombie now, mind is clogged up with too many stuff to even function properly. I'm going bonkers ):

I need a BREAK!

To know that I may not be even meeting some friends like Gin, till next term? semester? holiday? God knows.  Puny too. Others too. For the fact that I've been promising to meet since last year, it feels like I've been breaking promises. So sorry!

So yeap, life moves on...... World's spinning every moment, every second is ticking.

And yesterday was white day. A month after February 14th :)


Back to math, talk to the hand. Bye.

A time comes in your life when you finally get it…when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out…ENOUGH. Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on. Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.

This is your awakening.



You realize it’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear over the next horizon.

You realize that in the real world there aren’t always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you…and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are…and that’s OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.

You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself…and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval.

Your stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you – or didn’t do for you – and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.

You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and everything isn’t always about you.

So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself…and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.

You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties…and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.

You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you’ve outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with.

You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” looking for you next fix.

You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.

You learn that you don’t know everything, it’s not you job to save the world and that you can’t teach a pig to sing. You learn the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.

Then you learn about love. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You learn that alone does not mean lonely.

You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.

You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs.

You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drinking more water, and take more time to exercise.

You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you take more time to rest. And, just food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you deserve, and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen.

More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it’s OK to risk asking for help.

You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms.

You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.

You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people…and you lean not to always take it personally.

You learn that nobody’s punishing you and everything isn’t always somebody’s fault. It’s just life happening. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.

You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.

You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.

Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than you heart’s desire.

You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.

You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.

Finally, with courage in you heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.

- Sonny Carroll

Anyone can easily walk away from somebody else. Nobody is forced to stay; we all have choices. But the real test is if someone would rather stay with you, even though walking away would be so much easier. 


Okay, I changed my mind about making time for other stuff during holidays. I realized that it's kinda impossible as practically packed with stuff. Yeah, awesomeeeee.

Major culprit: ProjectS -.-

Well at least, the science and geography field trip sounds a little interesting, no? Kind of, to me, after that hellish 1hour talk today. But the worst part would be the write up and all. English's project is almost done, just the filming part. Heartdrops ♥. I have not a single idea for physic's project though. Confusing much.

So yesterday night was kind of a terror. Wasn't able to sleep, when i was really tired already. Got up my bed at 12am, and i don't know.. My mind was just filled with ridiculous stuff and just couldn't get out. I can't believe I'm suffering from insomnia this way. Kind of weird. But yeah, very confusing indeed.. this sucks. It goes the same during lessons. Sleepy yet unable to fall asleep. Thinking of it, it might be a good thing, but the feeling's horrible.

In the contradict, i'm feeling so good right now. After all, there's so much things to look forward for! Well, exclude those bad stuff. Like hmm, I'm dying to watch 'Alice in the wonderland'? Yeap, on 3 Respect's gathering. 'm gonna be there with Germ for sure. And on the Tuesday with Beaunice. I feel so pathetic, only 2 stuff that made me feels it gonna be so mind-blowing. But oh well..

 'coincidence' yeah.

A small bit of languor as well. I slept on hard wood for like 20 minutes just now when we're in the midst of doing project. Har har.

 "If sadness is what happens when you turn your anger inwards, hope is what happens when you turn your happiness, outwards."


I've realised it's been long since I met Gin. Or maybe even talking to her. I wish I have the time to sweep my oh-so-busy schedule off just for a day. It's been long since we went out together! That is, if I could, i would. And the fact that I'm going to find time for doing other stuff other then just studying and more studying. How lifeless.

I'm tired from the whole day of dance, yet I don't feel like sleeping. Today was rather awesome. 3 days a week is so cool! Spent my dear evening with Audrey Beaunice Chloe & Peanut for dinner. It's been long too :)  Awesome!

Today marks off the ending of a week. Today's also gonna be the last test for the semester, and I'm gonna say: bye bye semester, not gonna miss you :D  Digressing, physic test was held today. Hey, i thought force was an easy chapter. It was so not! However, I guess it was better then the last one. So anyways, CA was a total bullshit. I'm glad I've not fail any results, yet. Average passes don't really satisfy me. I really need to stop lazing around! It's just that, actually, I kinda screwed them with a screwdriver, like uhm a-math? I think i did well for the common test, but the total percentage turned out to be only crappishly 57% , and why is that so? I freaking failed almost all my class tests by 1-3 marks.

I feel like eating ice-cream suddenly. I only eat it when I have the mood too though. And i'm having the i-want-ice-cream mood now ):

For a fact that I've been recalling really hard for this post... no hope. Deal with the short posts nowadays, dear blog. My life hasn't really been any interesting lately.